When becoming a new mom I researched everything
or so I thought...
I mean thats why we have google right?
(I'm not sure how people raised children before google.)
Well the one thing I didn't research was breast-feeding.
It was the one thing I assumed would come naturally.
Well thats a bunch of bull
...in my case anyway.
Disclaimer:
If you're not mature..don't read this.
Its the truth.. the struggles I've gone through.
Breastfeeding has without a doubt been
the hardest thing
about being a new mom.
[Both Tim & I agree, being parents has been significantly easier then we imagined.
Maybe were just weird... and people look at us like were crazy when we say that.
But its true!]
Brynnley is a joy. She has brought us closer together.
She is SUCH a good baby,
she STTN (sleeps through the night) at 2 months,
Tim is amazing, our families are incredible!
The 'sleepless nights' weren't that bad,
I got used to the cold food, not showering, staying in the house,
and losing my friends.
The one thing I could not understanding is why it hurt so bad.
(To the point of crying when she would eat, and dreading her waking up to eat.]
After having Brynnley they threw her on me and shoved her mouth on my nipple.
I'm thinking cool! This is the easiest thing in the world... look at me go.
(I had Brynnley at 12:42 in the morning, after 20 hours of labor)
By the time we get in our room its 3 something in the morning & they tell me I have to
feed her every 3 hours.
The Lactation Consultant came in at like 6 am asking how everythings going.
Okay, I had been up for 2 straight days, there were people in the room,
and I thought I knew what I was doing.
{Now I wish I would have taken the time to talk to the LC and had her check out Brynnley's latch.
For those having children...
TAKE YOUR TIME AND TALK TO THE LC!}
They told me to pump to help my nipples come out & help my milk come in.
Sooo fast forward. I'm at home & the next day my milk came in.
Good LORD did that hurt. I felt like I had bowling balls in my chest,
plus my daughter is part piranha.
She would smack her arms around,
and it hurt. Not to mention she would fall asleep every time she ate.
However, she was back up to her birth weight so everything was fine.
HA. NOT.
EVERYTIME
Brynny would latch I would either cry or bite something.
[Seriously...take a look at her nuks, there are bite marks in them.]
I HATED it, I tried... I really tried to love it.
But it hurt, seemed kinda disgusting, and did I mention HURT??
I remember reading the Breastfeeding Forum on the WTE app
(a must have for new moms)
and crying to Tim saying,
"Why can't I be one of these people who looooves breastfeeding?"
Seriously...I would be in tears.
I felt like such a
failure
for not being able to feed my daughter!!
As if all that wasn't bad enough I got mastitis...twice!
The second time was so bad I had to go to the hospital...miserable.
THEN
I ended up having to exclusively pump for a while because she refused the breast!
But, we stuck with it...
with toooooons of support from Tim, family, the Breastfeeding Forum,
and the nipple shield......
Four months later
I can
FINALLY
say I'm one of those moms.
I LOVE IT!!
It such is a blessing!
Its free, convenient, and an amazing bonding opportunity.
Plus if Brynny gets fussy I can just nurse her to comfort her :)
